Lately I have been thinking about death...not in a bad, morbid way. Don't worry I'm not suicidal.
I'm thinking about death because people around me are talking about it all the time and it seems like some of them are so scared of dying, that they are not letting themselves live. Some are scared of flying, because the plane could crash and they could die, so they never leave their country. Others are scared of diseases, some are scared of not knowing what is on the other side. Some are even scared of God, because they know they have done 'bad things' in their lives and they will be punished if they don't make everything right before they die.
In a way I understand these fears, and I'm not judging the people who have them, but I am a bit confused when people think that others should be scared of the same things and should behave according to their fears. I'm being judged because I want to travel even though I know the flu is spreading and planes have been crashing lately...
If I were to die tomorrow, I would be scared...no, not scared... I would be sorry, because there is so much I want to do and see in my life. Because I've just started living MY life. But I also know that accidents happen and you never know what tomorrow can bring. Still I try to live my life without thinking about dying and I don't like to be reminded of it every day. I also believe that positive thinking can bring good things. Still I find dying in plane, while travelling to somewhere I want to go, better than dying while crossing the road, just because some dumb ass decided he's going to drink and drive today.
Nevertheless I find dying when you get old a completely normal way of ending the process of life. I don't know if my opinion will change when I get older. Right now I know I'm not a Highlander and I wouldn't want to be one, so I'm trying to live my life in I way I like, so I don't have any regrets when I get older. So I get to do everything I really wish to do and that some day, when I'm lying in my deathbed, I can say I have very little regrets and I can embrace death like I'm embracing life right now.
